from half full to half empty in 2.5 seconds...

the chronicles of a girl.

life for me has been lonely lately. not to be all emo and what not, but it has. being 21 and married can be utterly lonely.

i love my job. this is a first in a long time. i feel like for the past year i have been on a never-ending search for a job that i enjoy. it was a vicious cycle really. i would get a new job, enjoy it for like 2 weeks and then be miserable. and when 8 hours of your day is miserable, life is pretty miserable too. i said, 'life is too short to be miserable', so i would start my search yet again for a new job. and 6 jobs (no joke) later, i find myself at one that i don't want to let go of. finally light at the end of the tunnel. and suddenly life is pretty great.

however, there is always something, isn't there? of course. this is life. well, this is my life. and... i don't know what it is. i can never seem to fully come up. i can never see cleary that the class is indeed half full. something inside is screaming 'no, no, NO! it is most definitely half empty, just take a look around'. and then it starts. again. sad. check. insecure. check. worried. check. stressed. check. lonely. check. you get the picture.

so what can i do to shake this? i don't know. maybe tomorrow the glass will be half full.