mememe

i post bulletins. i update my status. i leave certain things in my newsfeed on facebook. i post links to my photography.

seems kinda self-centered.

i read all these bulletins about my friends. i read their status updates. i read the information in some of my friends newsfeeds. i look at their links.

what is it about sharing so much information about ourselves? are we really that interested in ourselves? do we really think people are that interested in knowing that much about us?

i am quite perplexed about this.

i, for one, have quite a low self esteem. does this mean i am wanting people to be interested in me? and those that are confident, are they self centered? or just faking confidence and really just insecure? or do we just like sharing information out of boredom or because someone else did?

maybe it all does come down to trying to prove we are secure in an utterly insecure world.

still perplexed.

thankful.

i feel like i am standing on the brink of a new me. and i kinda like that.

i have also realized my best friend is also my husband.

i am also realizing that i will be 22 in about 7 months. i know it is far off but is also too close. i don't want to be 22. if i could skip this age i would. i will be waiting for 23. which seems to be better than 22. at least for me.

i really feel like taking pictures today. and i cannot wait to decorate for christmas.

i am thankful for: my best friend. sophia and her joyful nature. fall. and photography. creative minds. beauty. chocolate milk. my many thoughts. my family. God. new york city. scarfs. warm sweaters. cookies. change. penguins. the stars and how small they make me feel. the wind in my hair. crunchy leafs. pink lemonade. and life. and much much more.

that is all.