january memories

four years. wow. thankfully, along the way it has gotten easier. but i never forget.

and on this day, i like to go there. take a rose. and stand. and think. remember. that was taken away from me today. and for that i am bitter. stupid lady that likes to take advantage of my kindness. stupid smyrna for being so far away.

on a less depressing note, i have been doing a lot of thinking lately. about life and such- the usual. though, i suppose my thoughts actually may not be that much less depressing... they are productive i guess...

i wish some people had more self control. and respect. and love. somethings are not easy. somethings are worth fighting for. worth waiting for. people, especially those that you care deeply about deserve that deep love and respect. they deserve to be cherished. and some of those people's actions show complete disrespect among other hurtful things.

and i think it is stupid when people assume because you are married, that you would not wish to go out and have fun... like for say at a party or whatever. yeah, i may not like to drink... but i still like to have fun. so, i am a 20 something that just so happens to be married. but i am still a 20 something girl that likes to have fun.

i wish i could stand up for myself. be bold. not get taken advantage of. if i could do that... i would be in smyrna now. oh well....

wow, what a bunch of negatives. i promise more positives next time, friends (or friend, or computer. i don't even know if anyone reads this...)