music is your soulmate

cutest commercial ever.

p.s i am gonna need to find one of those cute things. i gotta birthday on sunday ;-)

Lessons Learned; Part Uno

over the past several months i feel like i have learned a lot about me and the relationships i have with the people around me. i feel like i have grown a lot over these past several months. 

coming upon my birthday, i guess it is only natural for me to reflect back on the last year. 

i have seen many changes including moving to nashville and several career changes. finally found a job i love. and a little friend named michael. 

i have also seen some of my relationships for what they are. people close to me only needing me for things... and rarely needing me for, well me. i feel i have a lot to offer those relationships. and it has hurt realizing that, but i must take that knowledge and try to make it the best i can. i can be me. and i am starting to finally see that being me is ok. i may not feel "real" love from those people but that is all in learning where my real love does come from. Him and of course a 7 year old child that adores me... i think he really sees me for me. i love the innocent heart of a child that can love just for the sake of loving. 

and there is much more... but it just so happens to be time for me to get ready. but you can expect the second half on a later day... that just so happens to be my birthday. 

have a great day!

a little hole in my heart...

this week has been the first week for me to work at st. george's without michael. he is not attending this week of summer camp, so it has been a preview for me as to what it may be like without him next year. 

and it has been dreadfully boring. i have been bored. felt unfulfilled. and at times lonely. i knew he made my life special, i guess i just didn't realize just how much. thankfully for the next three weeks he will be at camp. 

it really is amazing just how big of an impact a 7 year old has had on me. he has made my life great.

but... today at camp we had a lady come and show her animals to the children. of course, being the animal lover that i am, i was quite excited to see them as well. she let the children pet them and hold some of the animals. i even decided to be brave enough to pet a tarantula. it was surprisingly soft, as odd as that may sound... 

so yes. that is all friends. 

not for the faint at heart

after living brown recluse free since october, this morning i met my sworn enemy.

i decided after a restless night sleep, what would be better than a nice shower to wake me. got in, washing my hair (la la te da) and then i glance over to the shower curtain and (dun dun dun) there is a vicious little creature staring right at me! my sworn enemy, you guessed it! the brown recluse. he stared me down with his fangs ready to attack! i screamed in horror feeling trapped inside the shower with the deadly spider. thinking fast, with shampoo dripping off my wet head, i bolted out of the shower, grabbed a towel of course, and ran to the kitchen. i grabbed my weapon of choice: lysol. i ran back to the chamber of death and sprayed my nemesis (die die DIE!). as he shriveled up in shock, i very hesitantly folded him in his coffin of tissue paper. i wanted to make sure he was dead, so i carefully opened the coffin and he wiggled about! (scream!) closed the coffin and smashed it with my fist. alas, he was dead. 

nothing quite wakes you up in the morning like finding a deadly spider in the shower with you. 

unfortunately in my short little life span, this would be the second time this has happened to me. i found one crawling on my towel as it was wrapped around me once. and even got bit by one. we definitely do not get along. and if there are any more, beware little spiders, you will die! (evil laugh!)

hope my horror story entertained you. 

random late night thoughts...

i cannot sleep.

i hate when i am trying to sleep and my mind is racing about 100 mph. over the past week, i have enjoyed a nice relaxing week off. i guess it is only natural that everything would creep back into place at about 1 am. 

what am i thinking about you ask? all of a sudden i pictured myself at the wedding i have coming up. i was thinking about the possible lighting situations, places i should be shooting from, where i need my assistant to be, the flash situation, trying not to be distracting... you get the picture. i am not worried about the wedding. i am just a perfectionist. i want everything to be beyond perfect. 

but moving along...

today i had to refer to my job as michael's assistant as being in the past. and i could have cried right then and there to a complete stranger. i was michael's assistant. and now, i am an assistant teacher. after a week of not seeing michael, i can tell you i am having michael withdraws. seriously. he's quite an amazing kid. 

also, bye bye hair. today i got it cut. so, i won't be getting the old remark, "your hair is getting long" (by the way, thanks for stating the obvious fact that hair grows, my friends. kiss your brains!). i am sure i will get some disappointed looks with fake smiles. ha. but, i don't care. it is cool and cute... like me-- not! ha. 

and. we got wii fit. who knew working out could be so much fun?! 

hmm. betcha didn't care to know all of that did you? 

ok. goodnight.