so. much. to. do.

kind of an odd feeling when you realize you have tons of pictures of someone (in a non-creepy way of course) and they have like absolutely no pictures of you. 

either you enjoy taking pictures way more or you are just not good enough to have a picture of...

but either way, i find it humorous. in the, i have way too many other things to be concerned about at the present moment than whether or not a person has an equal number of photos of me as i do of them, kind of way. 

this week:

-last week of school

-family portraits to edit

-REVO pictures to finish editing (sorry, sorry, sorry!)

-bridal portraits to take

-purchase photo equip for upcoming project (taking pictures of cell phones for a company)

-starting that project

-need to find a summer job

-sick husband

-doctor's visits

-say goodbye to a precious child named michael :-(

-breathing. 

*sigh*

a tale of two choices: the decision

the day finally came where the burden of the choice was lifted off my shoulders. and as i felt relieved, i felt my heart grow heavy...

as i put michael in his car after school today, his mom said that my director would speak to my regarding the meeting she had with michael's future school. i was quite apprehensive, as i thought through different reasons why my director would be talking to me about it instead of his mom. my director and i walked through the hallway to her office and she told me, i would be staying at st. george's this next year. the family was not able to make the arrangements for next year that would have been most suitable for both me and michael. it would be too big of a risk for me to go with him. 

whereas i am relieved to finally know what i will be doing, i am quite heart broken that i won't be able to see my special little buddy everyday. over the school year, michael has become more than just the child i assist, he has become my friend. i know it may seem silly to have a seven year old friend, but michael is amazing. he has taught me about loving unconditionally and about perseverance. i will miss all the hugs, laughter, joy, all the silly moments, and his love. even if i have to get on to him, he will just look at me and smile, and almost instantly forgive me. he still loves. and i hope that i have has as big of an impact on him that he has had on me. 

i can only hope after the school year that i can maintain my friendship with my little buddy. i am going to miss him so much. 

seis de mayo

me- "how does it feel to be annoyed when you are doing something? well, don't bother me when i'm trying to go to sleep."

nathan- "you don't make money when you sleep."

rachael- "well, i make dreams!"

i feel pretty silly tonight. just thought i'd share. 

nathan took me out for "seis de mayo". it was too crowded for cinco de mayo. 

hope you are having a great night!

a tale of two choices

the school year is almost over where i work. we are busy with school plays and other end of the year events. i can't believe it was just 8 months ago that we started. time has flown by and i have enjoyed every moment. i am still thankful for this job everyday. it is so nice to love going to work. 

now, 8 months later, i am stuck in the middle of two great choices for next year. a decision that i am dreading to make. i can stay at my work and have a new position or i can go with michael to kindergarten as his private aide. 

st. george's has truly been great to me. my director is the best boss i have ever had. she is a great leader and empowers her employees to be the best they can be. there is a relaxed environment due to the bar of excellence in place that people actually strive for. there are wonderful teachers there that have become my friends. it is the kind of school i always wanted to work at. 

but we have michael. i adore michael more than i could ever begin to express to you. he has brought my heart great joy over the past 8 months. even when his behavior is not great i still love working with him. he, a 7 year old child, has become my best friend. he's my lil buddy. i love to see him grow socially and academically. sometimes i get discouraged, but then he just calls out "mrs. moore" in the most precious voice and comes running and gives me the biggest hug. his compliments to me are the best i have ever received. coming from him, i know they must be true. michael loves unconditionally and he encourages me to be like him. a heart so innocent and loving. he is great. 

so, a choice between two of the things i love. each with new responsibilities and challenges, but also with great joy. so what do i do? i have no idea... 

but i do know, that LOST is coming back on tonight. get excited! i know i am!!!

a new earth?

so many of you probably have already heard about oprah's new "church" (as people call it). i have already seen quite a few facebook groups about stopping it and so on... and one even calling her the "anti-christ". youtube videos of course have been made, and i am sure there have been protest outside her studio. 

i joined her website and decided to see these lessons for myself. i looked at the message boards to see people's favorite quotes from the book, like, "man made God in his own image". and upon doing further research, it would appear that oprah believes in a god, just not that Jesus is the only way among other solid Christian truths. *gasp* <-sarcasm

ok. so, oprah is not a christian. there are a lot of people in the media and average people that are not christians. american does not = christianity happy land... the land where christians frolic about merrily. america is spiritually starving like the rest of the world. 

i don't think we should be so quick to get offended when people don't believe the same thing as we do. they believe that what their beliefs are true the same way we know what we believe is the Truth. our job is not to get our unders in a wad, but to pray. pray pray pray. and speak the truth gently. 

in my opinion, by being offended and judgmental, we further put gaps between us and nonbelievers. i think it turns people away from christianity. Jesus' message was love. He went to those hurting, broken, lost and sinful people. He showed them unconditional love, kindness, gentleness, and the Truth. and as Christ followers that is our job too.